A couple years back, I saw a cartoon where a guy was sitting in front of his computer, and the screen read, “You have officially reached the end of the internet.” And I laughed, because I knew that would eventually happen to me. I’d surf and surf until, finally, there it was. A brick wall with a small opening to the real world outside.
That hasn’t happened to me yet. However, I truly believe it has happened to me as a blogger. I literally don’t have anything left to say. I’m serious. I could rant and rave, again. I could fill you in on the minutiae of my life. I could whine and complain about work. Heck, I could set my nose on fire. But. Would I ever tell any of you anything that I haven’t told you before? Would I ever tell you anything that you need to know? Worse, would I ever entertain you again?
Please don’t view this post as a cry for all of you to tell me how much the internets would miss me if I were gone. For every Wordnerd there are gazillions of other bloggers out there that are better at this than I am. For every post about mama, or lovebugs, or colonoscopies, or trying to hold onto your kids as long as you can, there are better, brilliantly worded, stories of love, and loss, and life.
This isn’t goodbye. For all I’ve just said, I don’t really think I could leave it. Not entirely. I’m just sitting back, taking a look at myself, and deciding what direction I want to go in. All this means to you right now is that posting will continue to be sporadic.
Because I’m gonna take a peek out the opening of that brick wall I told you about earlier.
January 30, 2008 at 12:38 pm
Ah, my friend. I know this so, so well. Last year I hit that same wall. Me ego wouldn’t let me shut down, so I just post when I feel like it now. Even if it’s dumb stuff like pictures of a cactus.
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I will miss you, but expect you’ll be back from time to time. I hope so. You can at least leave an occasional comment snark just so we don’t miss you too much!
Fare well for now, most excellent lady. See ya ’round the writer’s block.
Love, Kingfisher
January 30, 2008 at 1:04 pm
That’s a BIG peek, I just got done reading about your aversion to holes. I’ll miss you, and am glad the door was not completely shut.
You, I hope, remind me of somebody who shuts down occasionally.
January 30, 2008 at 1:28 pm
Dude, I think you forgot to send people over to MY site while they’re waiting for you to come back.
Take it easy out there. The world is a very big place.
XO!
January 30, 2008 at 1:32 pm
The real world is scary so feel free to come back often.
January 30, 2008 at 1:52 pm
The most freeing thing that I have learned about blogging is that I don’t do it for other people’s entertainment, I do it for me.
If writing here isn’t making you happy anymore, then I’d totally support your decision to move on, HOWEVER, I hope you don’t think that you need to “entertain” us. I read because you’re a friend and I’m interested in your life, plain and simple
Good luck with the brick wall though–I’ve been there before!
January 30, 2008 at 2:55 pm
I feel you.
I feel right there with you, even.
Take your time, knock a bigger hole in that brick wall, and come say hello when you get a minute. You’ll know what to do, when you want to do it.
In the meantime, please forgive me:
PLEASE DON’T GO I’D MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!
January 30, 2008 at 4:45 pm
I just wrote a lame post today and was tempted to gripe about this very thing. It did not help that a friend of mine had posted about her son and made a production of how rarely she does that because there “is more to her than being a mother”. I read stuff like that and I just don’t want to write anything at all anymore.
Sigh.
Anyway – I feel ya sister.
January 30, 2008 at 5:07 pm
Yep, understood. I go through phases of it on my own. And then one day I’ll be in the shower and I’ll think, “Oh, I need to blog that.” And I’ll be back… until I’m not again.
We’ll be here, in some form or another, when you’re ready.
January 30, 2008 at 5:37 pm
Love ya. Mean it.
January 30, 2008 at 7:58 pm
When I realized that I didn’t HAVE to blog every day, I no longer worried about it.
I’m with you, sister. Relax, enjoy yourself, read a book or three.
We’ll check in every day or so, just in case.
January 30, 2008 at 8:10 pm
I first want to tell you that you need to go ahead and do what you feel you need to do.
Second, I’m with Angela. Write for YOU. The rest of us read you not because of what you write about, but how you make us think and feel when you write about what you write about. Who among us can forget that beautiful story about your little boy and his first Christmas tree? In fewer than about 250 words you had half the freakin’ internet bawling over a little boy’s beautiful, searching, wondering eyes melting a grown businessman’s heart.
And what about the way you singlehandedly took on the idiot hate-spewers on behalf of us and Dr. Syn’s family during his illness and after his passing?
You’ve created standout moments for me, WN, and I think I can speak for dozens — if not hundreds — of others who would ditto me on that.
It’s not the subject matters to us. It’s the delivery. And whenever you write, whatever you write about, Wordnerd, you deliver.
Please don’t psych yourself out of our blog rounds!
January 30, 2008 at 10:27 pm
i blog about football. so, imagine my dismay at this point of the year. (sigh)
we’ll miss you!
January 30, 2008 at 11:02 pm
i hear ya hon.
January 30, 2008 at 11:16 pm
What everyone else said. I’d miss you too, so at least some of what you say is important.
January 31, 2008 at 12:51 am
No no no, this is a good thing. Because this year UGA plays LSU and I won’t have to worry about anything being pink…
January 31, 2008 at 12:56 am
Fair ’nuff. Life takes hold and there are other mountains to climb. Just drop by now and then but remember, sometimes it’s the little things that hold the most impact. You don’t have to entertain, just say it how it is. I feel the same way sometmes. If the mood strikes, have a go . .if not . . leave well enough alone. I’ll still drop by just in case!
January 31, 2008 at 8:38 am
Echoing Karen – love ya, mean it.
January 31, 2008 at 5:04 pm
SHNIKEYS!!! I understand, I will miss you, but I definitely understand.
You gotta do what you gotta do. I respect that. And you.
Lovies.
February 1, 2008 at 12:16 am
what? NO! OK, I do really understand. Just as some very wise person told me earlier today… you have to be true to yourself.
But, like everyone else above, will miss your words. Just try to stop by on occassion.
February 2, 2008 at 10:36 am
Sometimes the blah blogs hit. I was glad to see your red post. We never really disappear do we?
February 5, 2008 at 5:36 pm
Yup.
February 8, 2008 at 1:40 pm
As you know, I pretty much took 2 months off and it was a very good thing for me.
I’m an introvert by nature, so when I’m troubled, I tend to go hide in my cave– which is exactly what I did.
I reserved all my energy for my husband and my job. Nuttin’ left over.
A break can be a good thing, and I”m sure that most people have you on a feed reader, so we’ll know when you’re back.
February 8, 2008 at 1:40 pm
PS- I love the image of “you’ve reached the end of the Internet” in my head. I got quite a laugh out of that!
February 21, 2008 at 10:19 am
Hey you know what? What goes up, must come down. I think worrying about not having blogging material is far worse than the reality of taking a few days off until inspiration hits again. Which it will.